One - The Poweful Number

As I write this blog entry, I am glancing at the clock, watching the numbers change. In less than an hour I will celebrate a birthday. It seems strange that for someone who constantly finds herself in the company of beautiful women and who parties to the wee hours of the morning, I am alone as this birthday approaches. Now don't get it twisted, I am alone, yet not lonely.

As the numbers on the clock sneak closer to my birthday, I am suddenly aware that I am experiencing an ephiphany. Now for those of you that may not understand what I mean, I will define epiphany... It is A sudden manifestation of the essence or meaning of something. I think I finally understand the number one. If you caught one of my earlier blogs then you know I love math and anything associated with numbers.

The number ONE is the building block of numbers. Its holds significance in almost everything. Its a childs first celebrated birthday, the winner in all competitions, and the essence of what I am feeling at the moment.

Having halves of anything may seem like you have more, but the reality is that you have bits. It is a blessing to have a whole, something complete versus having many pieces, yet nothing that completely satifies you. In life and in love, everyone eventually has to anchor down to ONE.... One job, one love, one GOD, and one vision.
As I sit here alone I realize that I have many bits and few wholes. Because the bits are all different they will not fit together to give me my ONE. It gets tiring having two jobs, dating multiple women, and chasing various dreams. There comes a time when a person must create their ONE. In all things, something must take precedence and become your one.
Its not a great feeling to know that in love, whoever your ONE is may not be ready to make you their ONE. Perhaps they are still in the bits stage and have some living to do before they can get tunnel vision and see only you... Or sadder, even though they are your ONE, you may not be theirs.

For me, I don't know all the things in my life that are my ONE, but I do know I am ready to begin the process of elimination. Somewhere there is a woman who will replace all my many bits and become my whole. She will not ask me to share and will require the same of me. Something inside me tells me one of my professions is not lucrative and i should let it go and make my ONE a legitimate profession.
I'm not professing that I will change the person that I am, but that I will change the driving forces in my life and focuse on the ONE things, letting others fade to black. You don't know me, but let me tell you, I am on the path to something great. I will get mine, may be dime by dime, but I will get mine... And when I do I will know that my number ONE has come full circle.

Now, tonight I am chilling and reflecting.... tomorrow, there will definitely be a bottle in my hand and a sexy woman by my side! Wherever you are, celebrate with me. Raise your glasses and have something good to drink!!

Ladies... Who/what is your ONE?? And if you aren't sure, what are you doing to find out. Don't leave bullshit on this blog, if its not from the heart don't even waste your time